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"FULL TRANSPARENCY"

8/7/26

hello lol. i've been finding myself wanting to be more in the open and out in the public rather than being private in my life right now and it's a very rare thing that happens when i enter an era. the title of this writing is called full transparency because i've been inspired by the lorde. her album virgin has been on fucking repeat all month of july and august so far for me and i cant stop listening to it and it's really inspiring to me that shes been open about her struggles.

Photo: Lorde: Virgin

now i think it's time for me to break some bad news. my album endless will no longer be releasing this year and will be on hold for the forseeable future. it pains be to say it but i cannot release it due to financial reasons as of right now. i had just finished it in it's entirety writing wise and then had that realization however, boy do i have a fucking treat for you all. AU REVIOR is still set to release tonight and im also happy to announce that i will be releasing 4 mini ep's exclusive to Soundcloud within the next year! these EP's have themes fun, love, pain, and healing. my first single DEMONS will be releasing 8/21 which ive been fucking dying to release this actually. i originally wrote the track for my 2nd album which i have gotten started on but i couldnt release demons officialy due to licensing issues but im so excited it get's to see the light of day. the song is dark pop and it's about being infatuated with someone and its reciprocated but will they accept deep down who you are the good, the bad, the pretty, the ugly. i really like it because there's also a double meaning but like you will find that out laterrr. recently i have been hard at work at this project and i have 3/4 songs done and they are called destiny, and drunk cigs. im gonna first share some lines of each of these songs and get into the meaning of them.

fuck the superficial shit, who knows what's after this

i wanna have fun before i go down to the abyss

because i came here to be reckless and carefree

why would i be, what you want me to be

/end

this track is called destiny and its about not wanting to follow everyones footsteps and just wanting to do what i want because of the reason of yolo. now theres alot more to it but like i find myself recently not caring about my image anymore and it ties to recent events in my life and i feel like it's been powering me. the first lines is kind of me question religion once again because i feel like i have so many questions but i dont feel like getting into that. the second line is me wanting to feel freedom from the stress of the pressures of life and yet finding myself questioning why someone would want me to change myself for their own gain.

breathe me in, and breathe me out

drunk cigarettes

smoking out the window in the fast lane

i can feel the dopamine hit my brain

when you get me harder than a migrane

feeling me in the car ain't no complaint

breathe you in, and breathe you out

drunk cigarettes

/end

this one is called drunk cigs and i think a lot of people are gonna like this one. im just gonna make it clear right now but drunk cigs is a euphemism for something but im not gonna say what for. I FUCKING love being drunk out of my fucking mind and then smoking a ciggarette or cheefin the fuck out of a friends vape. (sorry) the lines breathe me in and then breathe you in are about reciprocation which for me recently i think thats love. being able to reciprocate something for someone even though you might not enjoy it that much is like love to me. which the topic then leads us into the next mini ep but we aint getting into that yet. the 2nd part i wrote and i was like goes hard but like not on paper but in the song especially the part after that lol.

i can smell desperation from a mile away

out on the floor hunting my prey

i dont know but we'll see

the path to where it leads

because i cant get enough you

im addicted im afraid it's true

i can see it in your face that you are too

do you have what it takes to survive

will you when my demons come alive

/end

i lowkirkenuly forgot to include lyrics from demons and that's my bad lowkey. this first ep is lowkey me just like being a pure sexual being a lil bit because i feel like ive wanted to write music like this for a while but i've been tied down by the constraints of ENDLESS. ENDLESS is an album about a male narcissism lowkey im not gonna lie and im not gonna lie its scary how good it is and bad in the way that im gatekeeping it. im not releasing vexation because im saving that one for later and also because i dont want to premote violence because it is about hating on bitches. As for what I'm putting out AU REVIOR v1.05 will be out on soundcloud tonight and when demons is set to release the 2nd version will be out on streaming platforms because i've lowkey been lazy this last week. im also re-recording wonderland and i. and i will decide a release date soon for streaming platforms. im gonna share some lyrics thoughts that ive been making for these projects to finish off and maybe you will see them in the upcoming mini ep's.

full transparency

broken shards

always on guard

/end

do you know what it's like

to leave it, leave it all behind

dont waste your time

like you wasted mine

dont look for me now, im gone

/end

i try to find you in certain places

but in the end nothing could ever replace

/end

oh i wish i could be heroine chic

but im blessed and im cursed with very rare mystique

and im just wishing you could be here next to me

because there's a spot in my bed and it's free

/end

im so melodramatic when i drink

i grab the vuse when i overthink

/end

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